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MariVye, thanks,
and...I hope that the only time I don't get back up is when I'm dead.

posted by Julia. on August 6, 2004 at 1:30 PM | link to this | reply

I have and I am truly inspired by your positive view and the way you haul yourself up after each knock down.

posted by MariVye on August 6, 2004 at 1:24 PM | link to this | reply

Mari, thanks very much.

There was some good to come out of all of that, I hope you got a chance to read the post after this one.

posted by Julia. on August 6, 2004 at 1:19 PM | link to this | reply

Quirky ~

I'm late - I was away from BlogIt for too long and missed the whole thing with the photo on your comments and just read your post about leaving.  I am SO glad you did not leave! 

If I was around I would have been right there for you with some others. You are a wonderful person and a great writer - you have made lemonade out of the lemons life has given you. (a trite phrase for what you have been through and done with yourself - but anyway ... you hopefully get my meaning).

I admire you and wish you well. I am sorry you were hurt so much in your life and here on BlogIt as well.

posted by MariVye on August 6, 2004 at 11:13 AM | link to this | reply

Shadow,
Excellent idea about the credit card info.  Now the question is, is Blogit willing to trace it down, find the information and block him?

posted by Curly-Jo on July 30, 2004 at 7:32 AM | link to this | reply

I notice that tpsen deleted his blog.
What's up with that? Some people relish the darkness. I want to live in the light. And if Blogit staff can't control it then we have to be alert for this degenerate stuff. I post as an an admitted addict. That leaves me open to some jabs or ridicule but I know that it will never hurt me as much as sister Quirky was hurt.

posted by man-boy on July 30, 2004 at 7:28 AM | link to this | reply

Quirky I am so sorry to hear about this
I read your story the other day but did not comment and I have not been able to read what else is going on until now, hang in there you have many friends here from what I can see.

posted by scoop on July 30, 2004 at 6:55 AM | link to this | reply

he put a similar pic on my comments too :(, hugz

posted by hugz_n_kisses on July 30, 2004 at 3:25 AM | link to this | reply

Quirkly,
Hang in there.  Your writing is important to us, but the person you are is even more important.  You are separate from your brother and from the sickos out there.  Your willingness to share your trauma and your honesty shows your strength.  I think life and healing is worth the pain it takes to keep growing.  Anyway, I've really enjoyed reading your work, and I hope you will continue here.  Take care!

posted by oceanic on July 30, 2004 at 12:42 AM | link to this | reply

Shadow, there are a lot of people here who love you!!!!!!
Whammie

posted by WHAMENATOR on July 29, 2004 at 11:25 PM | link to this | reply

Kay-Ren

Yes, I am going to quit if something isn't done. I just can't keep sitting by and allowing one person to go rampant throughout a major system and not be stopped because no one in charge wants to do anything about it. There have been people who have complained and nothing has been done so far. If blogit really wanted to get to the bottom of the matter, stop this, then why haven't they acted yet. I don't need this.

I love the family here at blogit, but if I have to witness everytime I come to this site one person controlling our every little move, harassing us and making us all miserable and afraid to write, then what good is it to pay to stay. There are too many other sites out there to write on and not have to pay. shadow

posted by Keshet on July 29, 2004 at 10:38 PM | link to this | reply

myddrin, I hope that no one leaves because one guy is a weanie. I believe that Blogit staff doesn't want one guy ruining this wonderful community that we have built one word at a time. I have to go sleep but I hope to see all the good people still here in the morning.

HUGS

posted by Kay-Ren on July 29, 2004 at 10:25 PM | link to this | reply

Quirky

I love your writing, it's exquisite.  It brings meaning not just to me but to many others.  Don't give up.

posted by LA_Flier on July 29, 2004 at 10:17 PM | link to this | reply

Sorry, I am so mad about all of this and I got kinda scattered there in the thoughts, but my comment should had started with Tpsen/possum yesterday admitted he was emenemsrevenge. Like I say, he can't be proved now because it was deleted. I think we all should just ban together and start blocking out people who leave comments such as this and not go into posts they write. That's what I've done. If everyone does this, then maybe he would go away. shadow

posted by Keshet on July 29, 2004 at 10:14 PM | link to this | reply

Wham, I'm a firm believer in, "what goes around comes around". I've seen it happen and it was really cool.  Negative energy attracts negative energy. He can gloat all he likes when Karma finds him, but it won't do him any good. I guess I do believe in a 'higher power' after all.

posted by Kay-Ren on July 29, 2004 at 10:07 PM | link to this | reply

Yesterday he annouced he was emenemsrevenge, but you see the slick person then deleted the comment and the post. This way he can defend himself and say where's the evidence. Its the profile people that gives him away and his writing style. He goes in and does this stuff, its the same crap then turns around and deletes it before blogit can check it out. Well, I'm following Wiley Coyote out the door myself. I'm tired of this. I didn't come here to watch innocent people get slaughtered, I came here to write. I don't care about clicks. I care about what others think of my writing ability and if my book will be good enough to publish. Question about not finding out who he is? Why can't they check the identity of the credit card holder? They have the information. You have to give the right information or the card is invalid.  shadow

posted by Keshet on July 29, 2004 at 10:06 PM | link to this | reply

Kay-ren. he would probab;y just gloat over his achievement, if he is that

kind of wicked person!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Whammie

posted by WHAMENATOR on July 29, 2004 at 9:54 PM | link to this | reply

Shadow,
I understand what you are saying, but I think it is a bit difficult to ban someone from a public forum.  I run a Yahoo forum and have found that people like to join and then post hate mail.  I ban them and then they just turn up again under another e-mail and another name.  The IP number could probably be banned if the owners of Blogit choose to do so, but that does not keep the offending party from going to another computer.  Satellite connections also have random IPs.  Unfortunately, people who engage in hateful activities are generally quite persistent and find loopholes.  The best defense is awareness and a quick finger on the delete button.

posted by Curly-Jo on July 29, 2004 at 9:19 PM | link to this | reply

As far as I know, the offending blogger has already been banned, but the damage he did was done. Too bad we can't find him and let him know the damage he has done.

posted by Kay-Ren on July 29, 2004 at 9:17 PM | link to this | reply

Do we know tpsen is him?
If so he should be banned immediately. Doesn't Blogit ban someone's ISP, though, and not just a screename they were using?

I'm going to write to Blogit to find out.

posted by InherentRights on July 29, 2004 at 8:54 PM | link to this | reply

Everybody talks about how sorry they are in regards to what has happened to my amigo. Well, why don't we rally and get the person off who is doing this to her and to all the other innocent people. If we ban together then blogit will have to do something. We all know who it is. Hell did you see his fucking comment below? MR TPSEN, also Eminemsrevenge who put that horrible stuff on Quirks site yesterday. He also hit a few other people as well yesterday. Why are you people just burying your head in the sand and ignoring this? I don't understand why you continue to take the abuse and allow this to happen?

I worried myself sick about Quirk all night and today and felt totally helpless that I could not do a damn thing to help her. She's a sweet and intelligent woman and many of us enjoy her work and stand by her for her courage to attempt to clean her soul of mistakes that are not her fault, but affects her just the same. People she loved and trusted as a child deceived her. Well excuse me what are we doing here when we call her friend. NOT A DAMN THING! shadow

posted by Keshet on July 29, 2004 at 8:50 PM | link to this | reply

Quirky,
You have given me so much strength these last three months. I thank you. I find myself in awe of you at times and strive to be more like you- kind, caring, resolute, creative, determined, and so much more. I am glad that you are feeling better...this is the first that I have become aware of what's been going on, or I would have written sooner. Hang in there lady, I wish you clarity for your mind, serenity for your heart and peace for your soul. Kudos, me.

posted by Original_Influence on July 29, 2004 at 6:39 PM | link to this | reply

Hi quirky Alone. I posted a comment to you in my blog section.
This is not a ploy to get a click. Sorry for all of this dear lady. We can't let barbarians control us... please take some time and then come back to us.

posted by man-boy on July 29, 2004 at 5:40 PM | link to this | reply

You are needed
Forget the posters who are idiots. Laugh at them and leave it behind you. And step out of your past.  I was never much for therapy because it made me dwell too much on what I had lost in my life and on my own inner pain.  What good can I be to anyone if I am in constant inner agony? So step away from it.  I think you have tortured yourself too long.  It is so easy to do....just step away from it. If it pops up in your mind, think of something else.  Only bring forth the pain if your experience can help someone else.  You are needed. Your life is needed. That is all that matters.

posted by xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx on July 29, 2004 at 4:10 PM | link to this | reply

Quirk:

I hope that you are alright. And I am sure he got his just deserts. protestors or not. Assholes are just assholes.

Try not to dump us all in the blender just yet. Occasionally you'll run into a bastard or two, but so far it seems the majority here are good, caring, and generally commenting people. And I am amazed that some of the posts I have put up didn't receive some serious flak. Don't give up on us yet, and yes - there is a reason to continue in this joke called life - what it is I couldn't tell you, but I'm sure the punchline is F'in great!

So hang in there and don't let one random ass-munch bug you.

posted by SanitySlipping on July 29, 2004 at 3:54 PM | link to this | reply

Mark--oh yeah, now that I think of it, there probably isn't. s

posted by scriber on July 29, 2004 at 3:32 PM | link to this | reply

Scriber ~  Is there anybody that DOESN'T know who he is?

posted by mark2556 on July 29, 2004 at 3:30 PM | link to this | reply

Quirk--anyone know who TPSEN is?

posted by scriber on July 29, 2004 at 3:29 PM | link to this | reply

u gotta be kidding
this terrible "incident" has made you top blog. quit your snivelling. i should be so lucky, thanx for the crutch. and have a nice day

posted by tpsen on July 29, 2004 at 3:20 PM | link to this | reply

Quirky
What an inspiration you are for simply sharing your pain!  The circumstances that ran me into my own "iceberg" were much less severe and it took what seemed like an act of God to get me to share.  I hope you choose to stay with us and keep sharing.  The worse thing we can do is let the stupidity of a few, whether it be in the form of senseless acts or plain judgmentalism, shut us off from the caring people around us.

posted by Budmannomore on July 29, 2004 at 1:34 PM | link to this | reply

QuirkyAlone

I am really saddened by what happened here, but I do hope you will overcome this evil thing, let it pass as it shall.

Please  try to focus on those of us that truly care about others, focus on the reality of love,,  because love conquers evil.

To allow this to fester in your lovely but troubled mind, to contemplate a life elsewhere rather than the beautiful here, is to give your mind to the scum  that  wrote that horrid trash.

Take your mind back be what you are, brave, and as Kahlil said: " Bravery is a volcano; the seed of wavering does not grow on it's crater."

posted by WileyJohn on July 29, 2004 at 1:26 PM | link to this | reply

Good to see you here today!    Glad to know that you're not thinking the unthinkable.....I always try to take suicide threats seriously, no matter how vague they may be.  Never know when just hearing one person say 'don't do that' might be all that's needed.

--T99

posted by Tamara99 on July 29, 2004 at 1:04 PM | link to this | reply

Oh my God! I cannot believe someone would do that!
I was not here yesterday that much if not, I would have gotten involved. I hope you stay and I am glad that horrible blogger left. There will always be cruel people like that, don't let it get to you!

posted by Runs_at_dawn on July 29, 2004 at 12:54 PM | link to this | reply

Quirky,

Oh my God...I am so, so, very sorry!  I had no idea this was going on.  I've been so busy, etc.  There's just no excuse for that blogger's behavior, and no excuse for others not to notice it and put a stop to it.  I feel so horribly bad for you.  Please...feel free to email me any time at all, if ever you need to talk.

Again, I'm so very sorry.  You are a wonderful writer and a sweet and lovely person.  I would ask you not to give up on this website, but I can imagine that right now you may not feel you have a choice.  I just hope if you do decide to leave, you will go with the knowledge that there are some here who wish you the very best and care about what happens to you.  As for me, my stomach is in knots trying to imagine the trauma that "person" caused you.  You poor thing!

Try to take care of yourself, okay?

Meriamne

posted by myrrhage_ on July 29, 2004 at 12:27 PM | link to this | reply

I can not say I know your kind of pain

But know that I feel the same sense of dissilusion with the world.  It is a struggle for me to move on, and I believe sometimes that God must have a cruel sense of humour.

I am very sorry about what has happened to you.  I hope your spirit revives, and I am glad that blogger was kicked off of blogit.

posted by lackadaisial on July 29, 2004 at 11:56 AM | link to this | reply

I am so very sorry this happened to such a sweet and giving person. There are more peopl here that love you and your writting.I am not in your shoes ,but I a sure  it was not easy writting about such personal experiences that  you held on to. People can be stupid and cruel. Hold on with Goods help you can get through this. I  wish you all  the best and my prayers are with you. Take care .

posted by Melodystar on July 29, 2004 at 11:54 AM | link to this | reply

Oh Thank God you're okay Quirky!!
I am so glad to see your words and thankful your spirit is reviving. Keep healing and yet another *HUG*.

posted by Katray2 on July 29, 2004 at 10:34 AM | link to this | reply

Some people are just assholes! Chronic assholes at that! I adore you, I

love your writings, and I am praying for you!!!!!!

MUUUUUUUUUAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!  and a big hug!!!!!!

Whammie

posted by WHAMENATOR on July 29, 2004 at 9:30 AM | link to this | reply

Quirky, my cats often have the same affect on me. Glad you're going to
be okay.

posted by Ariala on July 29, 2004 at 9:21 AM | link to this | reply

I'm glad you're still with us
You will get through this, because you are a strong person. Many hugs

posted by InherentRights on July 29, 2004 at 9:19 AM | link to this | reply

I am so sorry to make everyone worry so much, and thank each and every one
of you loving people for your support. I am not okay yet, but I will be, I will get through this and be a stronger person for it.  I have a massive headache, my face hurts and I'm still crying, but I think the worst is over, emotionally. I was beyond rationality last night when I wrote that post, in the middle of a major emotional melt down. But my four fur-covered angels anchor me to earth and I am not going anywhere. I don't know what I was thinking, except perhaps of going back into the iceberg that I've written about before, that place where pain could not touch me. But I won't do that, won't let a couple of very mentally ill people ruin my life. Thank you for caring, my blessings to all of you. Please forgive me for not answering comments today.  

posted by Julia. on July 29, 2004 at 9:16 AM | link to this | reply

Quirky,

I'm sure that that post made old wounds bleed. I am outraged by the behaviors of some people. Don't let a fool like that make you leave... what would I do without my Poopyhead? Anyway... if you must leave, then you have to, there's nothing anyone can say. But I hope you don't. For 1 fool you find here, you will find 5 fabulous bloggers. That's what I learned here.  Hope you feel better soon, quirk...

posted by helene on July 29, 2004 at 9:16 AM | link to this | reply

Quirky,
You are on this earth for a reason.  Please don't let the darkness win - fight for the light.  Your words are swords that penetrate the darkness with truth and light.  You have a purpose.  There are many who don't understand and never will.  These are the sons of darkness.  You are a daughter of the light.  Please check your e-mail.

posted by Curly-Jo on July 29, 2004 at 9:02 AM | link to this | reply

Quirky, please don't leave, I didn't see it, but I can imagine the pain.
HUgs to you, please don't leave

posted by Star5_ on July 29, 2004 at 8:56 AM | link to this | reply

Quirky,
If you're reading this, please see that there are more people who care about you, than those who don't; see that for every every evil comment, there are a hundred kind and loving ones. There is happiness and you deserve to know it.

Please check your email, Quirky.

posted by InherentRights on July 29, 2004 at 8:45 AM | link to this | reply

Quirky, I am sorry you were so hurt by a post.
Some people feel like they something important to say, and they try really hard to get the message out.  Outright offensiveness is a result of frustration.  You are a fragile person, who has seen hell I'm sure, and I believe you have alot of healing to do.  What the blogger did was wrong, however, he is not entirely responsible for your weaknesses.  I think you should consider serious counselling.  I wish I could hug you, erase your bad memories, but it can not be done.  You have to be strong, you have to fight to be the kind of person you want to be, and you have to build a shell to protect yourself complete with radar.  It is your responsibility.  There are rules on blogit, and the idiot violated them, but there are no shortage of idiots darling.  Best wishes to you on your journey.  You've got to fight!  You have to, to get your life the way you want it!   

posted by Flumpystalls3000 on July 29, 2004 at 8:40 AM | link to this | reply

So sorry to know the pain, hope u are ok.....

posted by Star5_ on July 29, 2004 at 8:28 AM | link to this | reply

You're right Tamara
I'm very worried about her. I've tried to e mail her, but my e mail is down for some reason. Hoping and praying hard she's okay. Please if anybody has heard from her, let us know.

posted by Katray2 on July 29, 2004 at 8:19 AM | link to this | reply

This sounds suicidal to me.

"I was not meant for this world, do not see how God could have possibly expected me to endure this pain. Time stands still now as I evaluate my choices. Stay here in this hideous existence some call “life,” or go to a place where pain does not exist. "

If anyone knows how to contact Quirky, please do and confirm she's still among the living. 

--T99

posted by Tamara99 on July 29, 2004 at 8:13 AM | link to this | reply

Quirks
I am appalled at what I've learned through your post.  I, too, have been busy the last couple of days and missed it.  You've gotta know that this person is an exception, rather than the rule. Look at all of the people rallying for you. *hugs*   It doesn't undo what was done, but I care. Lots of people care.

posted by Wildwoman_Laloba on July 29, 2004 at 8:07 AM | link to this | reply

Quirky--Usually pain real or of the mind lessens with time; And one must
come to terms with it.  You were right when you noted that there are others like the individual who left the material, in poor taste.  That the right actions were taken to banish the ass should be of some comfort to you.  There are people who try to do the right thing. I think they far outnumber the idiots.  love scriber 

posted by scriber on July 29, 2004 at 7:54 AM | link to this | reply

Please don't go!

Don't let a foul persons comments get you down!!! I am glad I did not see that awful post. I am a born again beleiver and I don't understand God all the time, I don't understand why God let my 23 month old baby be killed by a babysitter. God could have healed him but he didn't. But because of all the bad that has happened in my 34 years of life, I see all the good and the blessings that have come since then. Luckily I have some comfort knowing he is with God, but it doesn't make it any easier since Aug 15th will be 1 year since his death.

Be strong! Don;t let fools rule over you!

posted by sirivorees_sub on July 29, 2004 at 7:42 AM | link to this | reply

I am speechless and sickened Quirky
I've not been around here much the last couple of days and just began catching up on my favorites this morning. I missed this horrible situation. I barely have words to express my feelings about it. Obviously the blogger in question is very ill or purely evil. Who here could defend such an action? That there are those who did makes me extremely uncomfortable and doubtful about staying myself. I am so sorry for your agony. Your strength and beauty of soul have inspired and motivated me to open up my writings more on painful and previously hidden subjects. Yes, there is evil everywhere, but I've always believed good truimphs eventually. Please do not give up on life and yourself, as far as leaving Blogit, I can fully understand why you would; as I stated I am considering it too. But please continue writing and fighting for the freedom from ice castles. The forces of good need you in this world.

posted by Katray2 on July 29, 2004 at 6:57 AM | link to this | reply

I didn't see that, and I'm glad
You have more support here than you could ever realize. Nobody that is worth anything is judging you. You have done absolutely nothing wrong. I feel that you should stay and continue with your healing process. You have many fans, me being one of them. Please reconsider. The person that did this is not even worth wasting your precious breath on. They are classic scum. I'm sorry that they did that to you. Hang in there, but with us here at Blogit.

posted by Sherri_G on July 29, 2004 at 6:56 AM | link to this | reply

Quirky,

 

That person posting that picture was just plain cruel and no better then a worm. What can we do, those of us who care about you, to make it better? You’re right we can't protect you. I wish we could. I have faith in you, though. I have to believe that you are stronger then that asshole who didn’t care what damage he did. His Karma will get him. What goes around comes around and he’s started a chain of events that is sending him what he sent you.

 

Be stronger, please.

posted by Kay-Ren on July 29, 2004 at 6:51 AM | link to this | reply

I concur with previous two commenters. Please see my post

posted by beachbelle on July 29, 2004 at 6:50 AM | link to this | reply

QUIRKY, HANG IN THERE, GIRL!!!!
Quirky, I am saddened by the reading of your ordeal and I don't know exactly what transpired as I had not been on here as much as I would've liked to lately but I'll say this, don't let this incident take away from you your true spirit. Yes, some people are malicious, uncaring but most often, these are the people who are not happy with themselves or their lot. It is their emptiness that compels them to hurt others and yes, it is sad but if you give in and lower yourself to their level then they are the ones who are victorious in destroying what is so precious to you - your spirit and your compassion.

posted by RICKYJFICO_PASSIONTHRU_U on July 29, 2004 at 6:47 AM | link to this | reply

I think blogit

is not the place to come if you are looking for a "safe place" to heal. Blogit is not much different than publishing what you have written in a newspaper. The only difference is that there is no one to screen the feedback.

It was a joke done it poor taste to be sure, but I think part of "healing" is learning to ignore idiots. There are always going to be people out there who don't have your best interests in mind, and I'm pretty certain that the best way of dealing with it is not to retreat from civilization, although I can certainly empathize.

I think the answer here is that what you need in order to properly heal is the aide of a trained professional to keep your depression and trauma in check. I don't think blogit can do that for you. It can certainly act as some sort of carthasis, but that's about where its helpfulness ends.

Before you make any snap decisions either to leave blogit or otherwise, I'd encourage you to explore and troll the professional resources out there first. After all, if you are already in unending pain, what's the worst that could happen?

posted by qwertyui on July 29, 2004 at 5:55 AM | link to this | reply

I am with you
that was the most disturbing thing ever to be seen, and it also has disturbed me,  I did not sleep a wink lastnight, and to some that may sound silly, but there is parts of my life I don't talk or should I say write about, and that picture was awful, I can not express how it made me feel other than physically sick .....I hope you are ok............you can talk with me anytime..................take care and please don't go....keep writing as you do........

posted by _Symphony_ on July 29, 2004 at 4:48 AM | link to this | reply

Quirky, this is terrible and I'm sorry someone was so immature and

insensitive.  I'm so sorry it happened to you. 

posted by Ariala on July 29, 2004 at 3:24 AM | link to this | reply

Quirky  -

I didn't see the photo or I'd have warned you not to look and reported them to Blogit.   

I am so sorry that someone was cruel to you yet again, but you had to know there were people like that out there.  The fact that this is coming up now means that you are ready to deal with it, that you're strong enough to deal with it.   Telling your story has made you vulnerable in a way you haven't been for 30 years.....but that vulnerability is not a weakness - it's strength, and it's healing.

Cave for a while if you must, but don't run.  You will never eliminate people like that, not here, not anywhere, and there is no such thing as complete security for any of us.   It's especially painful for you because you've torn away the scabs that have left festering wounds underneath and someone just poured acid on those wounds. 

Wash them clean with your tears - Grieve for all involved:  your brother, his victim's, the poor soul in that photo someone posted, and your family.  Let more of the ice melt, but don't let it steal your will to live and don't stop the healing process.

As you continue to recover, you will have some rough times.  One day, you may meet someone whose family member was murdered - and they won't be able to deal with what your brother did.   You will meet childish people like whomever that was who posted the Dahmer photo who will taunt you.  You can't prevent that.....but you *can* prevent it from stopping you.

You might want to check into a book called The Highly Sensitive Person - from your description of what you were like even before this happened, I'm betting you are one.  (So am I, and so is my cousin....it's part of the reason I work nights)   She describes ways to survive the assault of the outside world on your senses.

--T99

 

 

posted by Tamara99 on July 29, 2004 at 12:53 AM | link to this | reply

Quirky - been gone all day and most of yesterday.
I have no understanding of why someone would do such a thing.   It is beyond me.  I am sorry this happened to you.  Wish there was something I could do.  I feel at a loss.

posted by TAPS. on July 28, 2004 at 11:36 PM | link to this | reply

Quirky

I am terribly angry and frustrated at the things people can do to eachother to damage them in places that never seem to heal.

I want to contribute something my gramma once told me, when I too, said the same thing that you did, asking how he could allow such a thing to happen to.  Well, my gramma said it better than I will write it, but she said "There are times in this world, in which we get so  caught up in ourselves and other trivial matters, that we forget to acknowledge Him, and it is during this time, usually something happens, and usually making you wonder how he could've let it happen, that finally you reach back out to God, and acknowledge him.  He allows frustrating and disappointing and hurtful things to happen so it will lead you to initiate a conversation with him, even if it might not be so pleasant.  Now, it's not the HORRIBLE things that people do to eachother, unspeakable acts that he uses to bring you near him, these acts, he turns, somehow into a flourishing amount of people ready to help, give money, start organizations, research, safe shelters, etc., and not let the bad that just happened envelope everything around it."  I once heard a man answer the question "How can such terrible things ocur?" and the man answered, "God gives us the freedom to do, and the freedom to be, and within that freedom, we all become vulnerable"

I'm sorry you're leaving.  One final thing I want you to know.  DON'T LET YOUR PAST DICTATE WHO YOUR ARE, BUT LET IT BE A PART OF WHAT YOU BECOME.

mUCH LOVE

posted by Kelli on July 28, 2004 at 11:18 PM | link to this | reply

Quirk
Check your e-mail.

posted by Talion on July 28, 2004 at 11:08 PM | link to this | reply

Quirky... I am saddened that someone could actually do such a malicious and

hurtful thing! And I am so sorry that this happened to you of all people! There are many here who support you and would hate to see you leave. I hope  you don't but I can understand why you would want to. All I can do is send a hug your way! Take care!

posted by Jay9 on July 28, 2004 at 11:03 PM | link to this | reply

Oh my God, sweetie. I am so sorry this has happened to you.
 I read your earlier posts about your brother and your ordeals,  but opted not to comment.   Not because I didn't care, but because I didn't have any words that seemed to matter at the time.   Tears welled up in my eyes when I read this last post.   Don't relinquish your spirit to anyone, search inside yourself for your anchor and never give up on humanity and the power of love.

posted by Tremac on July 28, 2004 at 11:00 PM | link to this | reply

quirky
tg

posted by tbgroucho on July 28, 2004 at 10:53 PM | link to this | reply

Wow, quirky, I'm so sorry to hear what happened to you here on blogit...

I'm on vacation and haven't been writing or reading much, but just saw this post.  I hope you don't leave us, because I enjoy your blogs, and I support you in your writing about the trauma you experienced in your past.  I'm just reaching out with a virtual hug and hope your healing process continues.  Take care.

posted by ksurah on July 28, 2004 at 10:52 PM | link to this | reply