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your friend may have had his doubts about his faith for a long time. many catholics have doubts that just have to be agravated to achieve convertion to aetheism. he may have needed an outside force and you were it.

posted by Arlene_the_Lovely on February 18, 2005 at 2:17 PM | link to this | reply

Unidentified Hacker, Hmm, let's take a closer look at that list: Irresponsible, impulsive, aggressive and disrespectufl of law and the consideration of others.  Could it be that's called being a TEENAGER, which you recently were?  I'm not saying it's not right to have a conscience, in fact, that is the very fact that should keep you from being a sociopath.  Sociopaths as I understand it, have no conscience or remorse.

In regard to your conversation with your friend,  I suppose you pointed out to him the illogic of faith and faith in the Catholic church in particular: the incidences of abuse of power of the clergy, the role of the church throughout hisotry in abusing the very people they were supposed to be helping: the oppressed, women, children, etc.  A faith unexamined is not a faith at all, it's a complacent, unthinking embracing of programming.  You played the Devil's advocate.  You're a brilliant logician.  Inconsistencies in logic are probably unpalatable to you.  I'm not saying you do a good thing.  I dont' know the answer to that.  In the long term scheme of things, he may find his own faith, tested through his own experiences. 

Hold onto your empathy, luv.  By the way, look at the last item of that list: Not currently in an acute manic or schizophrenic episode.  In which your judgment is impaired and you are acting under the influence of larger forces: unconscious drives from childhood, rage, pain and fear, the kind of animal fear of not wanting to be caught, the Shadow personality, and larger forces incomprehensible to us all. 

It's easy to look for more diagnoses to torture yourself with, I think you've got enough on your plate without adding to it.  As you walk through the Valley of Shadow of death, may the force of light shine on you, my friend, illuminate you, and bring you peace and sanity. 

posted by Blanche. on February 17, 2005 at 12:00 PM | link to this | reply

I think you may be blaming yourself too much
Your friend would not have changed based solely on your talk with him no matter how harsh or manipulative you think you were. His choices and decisions were his own. People don't just abandon their faith/life unless they have been shaky in it all along.

posted by FactorFiction on February 16, 2005 at 5:43 PM | link to this | reply

uni hacker

I think we are all capable of dark days...whether we are pushed, or wounded, or sick...

so we must do all we can while in the light.

posted by MiaElla on February 16, 2005 at 1:55 PM | link to this | reply

No one can be a harsher judge of you than you are.
I just hope that you have found the help you need and a way to control things now that you can identify them. That's the best you can do.

posted by RedHeadedGypsy on February 16, 2005 at 10:57 AM | link to this | reply