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MayB
You would have probably think there were much better places to apply your time. *grin*

posted by Joe_Love on November 13, 2005 at 8:16 PM | link to this | reply

You mean not being saintly? Who said all the saints were "nice"?

And remember, picturs of the angels often depict them carrying swords

posted by majroj on November 8, 2005 at 11:06 AM | link to this | reply

Majroj, hmmm. so I have failed totally

posted by Azur on November 6, 2005 at 12:54 AM | link to this | reply

10-4, MayB.

It can be sort of like when fans keep popping up to express thier condolences to Carly Simon about her divorce from James Taylor, about 20 years afterwards?

And, when you go through someting like cancer or someting else traumatic, you are supposed to become a saint, right?

posted by majroj on November 5, 2005 at 9:51 PM | link to this | reply

I can completely understand not wanting to tell more people than

necessary. 

posted by -blackcat on November 5, 2005 at 7:07 PM | link to this | reply

Ca88andra, it's good that she can talk about it although I expect she has times when she wants to talk about anything else. Sometimes hugs are better

posted by Azur on November 5, 2005 at 6:05 PM | link to this | reply

One of my work mates has cancer and goes for weekly chemo. She doesn't mind talking about it and always makes me laugh with some of her hospital descriptions. Sometimes though I just give her a hug.

posted by Ca88andra on November 5, 2005 at 6:02 PM | link to this | reply

QuirkyAlone, thanks. I think word.smith identified THE phrase in this one.

posted by Azur on November 5, 2005 at 6:01 PM | link to this | reply

BlancheDubois, that's exactly it. People still lean in towards me at times and conspiratorially ask, "and how ARE YOU?", "No more problems?" It makes me want to say "leave me alone". But I will probably remain polite whenever they ask. I know they mean well but it's also like that's the only interesting thing about me

posted by Azur on November 5, 2005 at 6:01 PM | link to this | reply

CarolynMoe, yes life is too short to give a subtext all the time

posted by Azur on November 5, 2005 at 5:52 PM | link to this | reply

MayB--
The subject of this post is not something I can relate to very well, but this was really thought-provoking and poignantly written. thinking of you.

posted by Julia. on November 5, 2005 at 5:51 PM | link to this | reply

This was for Majroj
Even though you did not talk it about directly with him I am sure that you must have helped him. Too many people pump people for info for vicarious reasons

posted by Azur on November 5, 2005 at 5:48 PM | link to this | reply

Mayb,
I understand the need for normalcy in an abormal situation.  I remember hearing about a woman, who I didn't know well, but she was like a mentor/mother figure to my boss, saying after years of battling breast cancer "I choose to be among the living".  Meaning she didn't want to focus on it or talk about it anymore. It's a tough call.

posted by Blanche. on November 5, 2005 at 5:48 PM | link to this | reply

Even though you did not talk it about directly with him I am sure that you must have helped him. Too many people pump people for info for vicarious reasons

posted by Azur on November 5, 2005 at 5:45 PM | link to this | reply

Frankenkitty, I agree but sometimes it's not easy. In some cases such as mine if you ask them wht caused it they just shrug

posted by Azur on November 5, 2005 at 5:43 PM | link to this | reply

Word.smith, thank you.

posted by Azur on November 5, 2005 at 5:41 PM | link to this | reply

Katray, it's true that some people talk about it more. I blabbed a lot - when it suited me

posted by Azur on November 5, 2005 at 5:40 PM | link to this | reply

Ariala, thanks for your comment. We'll have to disagree about my last paragraph - it was something I needed to say.

posted by Azur on November 5, 2005 at 5:39 PM | link to this | reply

Marshallengraved, thanks I always try to have a good weekend. You too

posted by Azur on November 5, 2005 at 5:35 PM | link to this | reply

When I recently had a mere biopsy for endrometrial cancer, it illicited sympathy, "oh, Carolyn..." suffice it to say I thankfully proved to be benign... I think I'd keep quiet about any major illness as well,... like I'm finally learning to do with my Bi-Polar Disorder... who understands that?...

posted by cmoe on November 5, 2005 at 1:23 PM | link to this | reply

I lost a valued colleague about twelve years ago.

A fast form of cancer, and (as a physician) he didn't go in for heroic last ditch measures which would have left him with prolonged agony and wasted months..or weeks.

I wanted to talk to him about it, I didn't know how, he didn't bring it up...so I didn't. I treated him much as I had before, supported him behind the scenes as much as possible, and treated it as just another condition like a rash or fallen arches.

I think I inadvertantly did the best thing I could. He didn't need to be a patient there, too, he needed to still be the deputy commander and the courtly yet powerful man, physician and aviator I had known and had the true honor to serve with.

posted by majroj on November 5, 2005 at 11:06 AM | link to this | reply

This was sad. I hate to even
type the word.  It is the second leading cause of death in the US behind heart disease.  I would like to see more progress towards a cure for cancer in this world.  Take care

posted by Flumpystalls3000 on November 5, 2005 at 8:03 AM | link to this | reply

MayB,

The following sentences struck a deep chord with me:

At that time I knew about priorities and what was of no consequence. Sadly that feeling soon disappears and we soon return to a normal state somewhat closer to foolishness than wisdom.

It is so hard to stay focused on the things that really matter in the short life that we have.   It just take things going well for us to lose our focus and start dashing around wildly in all directions, forgetting the things that really come first. Those are God and family in my book. Unfortunately, they do not always take that order and I allow life's worries to clutter up my time and mind.

posted by word.smith on November 5, 2005 at 7:03 AM | link to this | reply

MayB, I am always so glad to hear survivor stories and to know that there really are some who do.   Those closest to me with cancer did not.  I think because of that, if it ever happened to me, I would only want to tell those who absolutely had a reason to know.  

posted by TAPS. on November 5, 2005 at 6:53 AM | link to this | reply

I've seen different reactions

from friends and family who have cancer. Some seem to need to talk about it, at times almost constantly; maybe seeking reassurances or they're attempting to figure out their particular situation - are they making the right decisions about treatment, surgeries, etc. Others keep silent about the subject. And I understand that also; too much concern can start to feel like pity.

Moving post May; glad you are doing well.

posted by Katray2 on November 5, 2005 at 4:37 AM | link to this | reply

That was a very good post and touching...I think it brave that this man, as

well as you when you had cancer, chose to continue to do those things you enjoyed. Some things are best not discussed openly because they attract pity and attention one doesn't need.

I loved your post, but felt the last paragraph was unnecessary. I think it might put some bloggers on the defensive, even if you're not talking about them.  My two cents worth.

posted by Ariala on November 5, 2005 at 3:17 AM | link to this | reply

just stopping by...
to say hello...wishing you a good weekend:)

posted by Marshallengraved on November 4, 2005 at 11:49 PM | link to this | reply