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to blog or not blog that is the question.
yes, i hate to admit it but I am becoming addicted to this blogging business, I only started blogging a few weeks ago, and already I find myself looking forward to hearing your comments guy. I am becoming a comment junky giving and receiving them. I don't know how low I am prepared to go to get your attention. I thought of stripping myself bare, figuratively speaking of course, and I have been doing that a bit quite a bit actually, but that was more out of desperation than as a way to get everyone's attention. I have thought of writing outrageous stuff, I draw the line at swearing but I prefer to remain true to myself even if it does mean going down in the ratings. I see this blogging as a challenge, a kind of popularity contest, a call in to the wild to you all out there, my virtual friends, i mean my virtual friends, just because you do not have a face, does not mean you do not have a heart. In fact, I have been really touched by the heartfelt comments given freely. It also acts as a kind of outlet for my feelings which can be really intense at times, close to desperation. It is a kind of reaching out to people, it fills a gap in a funny sort of way.... I forgot the point I was trying to make. Yes, I find that people respond very emotionally to my poems, so I could really overdo the sob stories, but I feel as though that would be manipulative... I spill my guts out there and it is not a pretty sight. Actually, I will try not to bore you with my tragic life, yes it happened, but you have already shed enough tears for me.
Well, I know am in danger of trying to second guess what people are going to like, I am in danger of trying to please the crowds at the expense of my integrity. It is a delicate balance between please myself and pleasing others, obviously I want to be read and appreciated and it feels good to know that you are but at what cost?
So be true to thyself I say and discover yourself in the process. This bloggin gives me an incentive to write some more. It gives me something to do because I am bored and lonely too, let us be honest, but most of all I love writing, and writing without an audience, is a bit like talking to yourself all day long, you go potty after a while.
I know there is a high incidence of suicides among artists, and I have often wondered why. I think it is great to have a rich inner life and to explore and delve into it freely. However, one is in danger of dwelling on negative thoughts and you run the risk of getting swept away in the tidal wave of very intense feelings. Hemingway, Fitzgerald ended their lives tragically perhaps to regain a sense of control on their out of control feelings, which is a bit of an irony really. It is good to step back, walk away, laugh at one self once in a while in order to avoid turning into selfabsorbed poetry gits (is that a word?). Yeah you can get bogged down or should I say blogged down in your own writing and the more you try to get out of it the more you go down just like in the bog. So be still my friends and know that I am God, yes he always comes to the rescue when I am in danger of overheating with too much thinking. God always gives me a fresh perspective on things when I get stuck. God is a good blogger too!, but he does not have a website as such, well you could try the Bible, best website so far and yes you can read the Bible on the net, but I digress. Actually, I have lost the plot altogether. God please help me. What was I saying. Well you go figure.
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marieclaire66
on June 11, 2006 at 3:03 AM
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Hmmm!
Well, I am still waiting to realise my lifes purpose. In the meantime I shall write and let my thoughts spill out into the open and see if they fall on barren land or grow into something worthwhile. Boredom is a strange state almost like suspended animation. Very hard to crank oneself up again and get back into the frey Not impossible mind. Like you say, thought provoking. Well done.
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silver-tongue-3
on June 11, 2006 at 1:55 AM
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Fascinating Read
This is very good, at times insightful and other times hilarious. I liked the comment about earthquakes, that was funny.
It seems like you have a large base of knowledge to work from...
--Shawn, "Tall and Skinny Poet"
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TallAndSkinnyPoet
on June 11, 2006 at 1:53 AM
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