Growing up neuro-divergent but never diagnosed, never acknowledged, one lives a lifetime self-blaming and self-shaming for the emotional awkwardnesses and embarrassments, the alienation, the aloneness. Repeated rejections breed resentment which doesn't make anything better or easier. Abandonments, real or seeming, erode hope which turns to the expectation of disappointment and finally an acceptance that the only safety is in fact in isolation. The spectrums of ADHD and autism have always been... Sign in to see full entry.