Sleepless Writings for Thursday, December 25, 2003

Coffee... all this coffee Trying desperately Not to be sleepy My last few days Up this way Have to stay Awake so that I can write Day and night Before I leave for Stupid Florida And sit in the car for 21 hours And be totally bored Across many state boarders As one of my brothers Lies sleeping and... Sign in to see full entry.

PAIN AND FUSTRATION Shaking with pain Lost in loneliness Nothing to gain From dwelling on it But I can’t help it I just feel so wrong My stomach hurts I’m so depressed My perceived self-worth Is reducing fast And the ghost of relationships past Is visiting my mind A cure for this vexatious lack Is... Sign in to see full entry.

CRAZY DREAMS Crazy dreams of boyfriends past Make me wonder if I am sane I've been past this person for so long He embodies everything I hate No ambition, can't communicate No balls, no confidence, no brain Why would he be in my dreams Cuddling close to me and keeping me warm Why would I think about... Sign in to see full entry.

Reading through some of my old poetry I find the sadness taking over me Memories of loves I’ve lost Remembering the dead that I once loved Seeing Derek in his coffin, Trixie in the hospital bed Tim driving drunk and ending up dead My grandmothers dying, friends killing themselves Witnessing... Sign in to see full entry.