Sleepless Writings

I strive to make each poem better Work to make sure I am heard Want to succeed with such passion That not succeeding is bound to hurt At times I find there simply isn’t The time to sit down and write Though I may whine or wish it Things don’t always turn out right It is the ability to cope with... Sign in to see full entry.

An icy chill comes over me As I commence to enter the hallway My mother walks passed me I could have sworn that it was her mother Her blue and white blouse with frills on the sleeve Send me images of my Grandmother’s clothing For a second it almost seems As grandmother was just sleeping She woke... Sign in to see full entry.

Beautiful mornings,Cool yet warm I am still yawning as I sit with my mom Staring out at the lake beyond Lizards running around on the ground The sliding door opens at my father joins us Without a word he starts reading his book Silent watchfulness, aware of the world Content in my place, Watching it... Sign in to see full entry.

Soon I will be all stuffed into the car Always hated when we drive that far Cramped next to my brothers having to pee Without fail the exits all disagree Never come when my bladder just has to go Not a Taco belle in sight when I want some food Always hot or cold never just warm Always fear that harm... Sign in to see full entry.

Coffee... all this coffee Trying desperately Not to be sleepy My last few days Up this way Have to stay Awake so that I can write Day and night Before I leave for Stupid Florida And sit in the car for 21 hours And be totally bored Across many state boarders As one of my brothers Lies sleeping and... Sign in to see full entry.

PAIN AND FUSTRATION Shaking with pain Lost in loneliness Nothing to gain From dwelling on it But I can’t help it I just feel so wrong My stomach hurts I’m so depressed My perceived self-worth Is reducing fast And the ghost of relationships past Is visiting my mind A cure for this vexatious lack Is... Sign in to see full entry.

CRAZY DREAMS Crazy dreams of boyfriends past Make me wonder if I am sane I've been past this person for so long He embodies everything I hate No ambition, can't communicate No balls, no confidence, no brain Why would he be in my dreams Cuddling close to me and keeping me warm Why would I think about... Sign in to see full entry.

Reading through some of my old poetry I find the sadness taking over me Memories of loves I’ve lost Remembering the dead that I once loved Seeing Derek in his coffin, Trixie in the hospital bed Tim driving drunk and ending up dead My grandmothers dying, friends killing themselves Witnessing... Sign in to see full entry.

Gray-white clouds on a blue-black sky I stare as I struggle not to cry Memories from my past have found their way Into my mind and want to stay I try to clear my mind of it all My efforts let a single tear fall I shake my head as discreetly as possible To avoid the notice from my mother The car ride... Sign in to see full entry.

PREPARING FOR CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!! Backbreaking-work Wrap this, wrap that Sit down, take a break Get up, make dip Sit down, blog a little Get back up, wrap some more Do the laundry, feed the kitten Let Tannis in the door Sit down, blog a little Midday knocks on the window Get up, open the window... Sign in to see full entry.