Random thoughts and actions

I miss my humor the most...but I got it back today..that quick wit and charm finally came back to me..thanks to some crazy person on AOL who IM'd me today..I don't know who they are..but this is the conversation..names changed..to protect me and the crazy person FREAK [11:03 AM]: hi ME [11:06 AM]:... Sign in to see full entry.

I'm learning new things every day. As I look around the apartment there is so much that just got neglected..as I proceeded to try to take care of everyone else..my life was just falling apart. I didn't even put it together to begin with..i just let it fall. So now it's time to get it all together. I... Sign in to see full entry.

I had a light bulb go on tonight as I was talking to my best friend about life. Our discussions are usually all over the place so this one included the dogs birthday party, astrology, personalities, mice and a few other topics thrown in. The light bulb coming on was actually due to a conversation... Sign in to see full entry.

is those days when you just feel like you have nothing to say at all. You wake up and you think "I should be writing more" but yet there is nothing in your head to write. In BN - it probably explains a lot when you read those few blogs that just dont' seem to match everything else. When you read... Sign in to see full entry.

Emotions have a funny way of working exactly like rollercoasters. One minute your up high and the next minute you're falling to a huge low. It fluctuates but it's always likely that you will end up at the other extreme sooner or later. That is how it has been this week. The first few days were... Sign in to see full entry.

I have been miserable the last few days without talking to you. It was how our relationship started - talking on the phone every night to discuss how our days were. We have had our ups and downs like every couple has - sometimes we would not get to talk on the phone as much or sometimes we would be... Sign in to see full entry.

Tommorow is Thanksgiving..at least in Canada it is. I celebrate it each year even though I am in the US because it gives me some comfort..I enjoy making a big deal dinner on a day when most of the people around me are going about their business. I enjoy it being like its just my holiday. For the... Sign in to see full entry.

I woke up to the alarm this morning..comfortable and not at all wanting to get out of bed. I finally did crawl out of the bed once I promised myself that I could crawl right back under the covers when I got home. I have nothing else to do. If I'm alone..I might be forced to think and to feel and I... Sign in to see full entry.

I couldn't wait for today to be over. I still can't really. Despite it all I love him which makes it hurt even more. Then I debate as to whether he feels at all the same way I do. He would never admit it though. I spent the morning crying again..then tried to pull myself together to pretend that I... Sign in to see full entry.

at least I think it is. My boyfriend and I tried to talk tonight about why I was mad at him. He blew up at me because I waited a few days to tell him. He told me that was wrong. He told me that I led him to believe that everything was fine and that I just threw this on him. He had no idea I was... Sign in to see full entry.