Adventures in Psychosis

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Friday, February 11, 2005

Apathy or Subjective Truth?

I was reminded today while thinking of an experience I had a few years ago. My step dad was driving us to the San Francisco airport, I don’t remember why. As we were driving I was watching the stripes on the road fly by and I quickly became lost in thought. I realized then, at that moment that I did... Sign in to see full entry.

Wednesday, February 9, 2005

All of This

I went and had breakfast with my family this morning so that we could all be together. At this moment in time I’m in a very strange place. There is sadness everywhere as death has found its way into the lives of myself and those I care about. At the same time, my mind is beginning to falter, perhaps... Sign in to see full entry.

My Grandmother has Died

And so it has finally happened. My grandmother passed away this morning at 7:30AM in a hospital bed with two of her daughters at her side. The doctors had done everything they could to make sure that she was always comfortable, and her death was very peaceful; her body finally let go and she simply... Sign in to see full entry.

Tuesday, February 8, 2005

Winning The Battle

I was asked by a friend yesterday if I had won the battle with schizophrenia. It’s an interesting question with a complex answer. First off, I don’t know that I’ll ever truly “win the battle” because I seriously doubt that my hallucinations will ever completely go away. At the same time however, I... Sign in to see full entry.

Just Because

I’m at an interesting point in my life right now. I’ve been a software engineer for two years now, and I’m really starting to wonder if this is where I want to spend the rest of my life. While my current job is very secure and stable, I don’t feel the sort of fulfillment that I would like to from a... Sign in to see full entry.

Thursday, February 3, 2005

Death

Doesn’t it seem like we are always surrounded by death? I would say that it seems that way because it is true. Two of my friends have recently lost someone close to them, and my grandmother is dying. A few months ago a friend of mine died in Iraq, just before that my uncle in law was killed in Iraq... Sign in to see full entry.

Wednesday, February 2, 2005

Silly People

Yesterday I was approached by someone at the store who told me that Jesus was coming in three weeks. Oh boy, time for fun. I couldn’t restrain my laugh and asked her why she thought that. Apparently, Jesus had spoken to her pastor and told him that he would return in three weeks. Again, I couldn’t... Sign in to see full entry.

Tuesday, February 1, 2005

A Happy Psychotic

Hello Blogit. It’s been a while. I thought I’d give you a little update as to what’s going on with me at this point. I was taking the anti-psychotic Risperdal for a couple of months, but that just wasn’t working for me; I wasn’t seeing a reduction in symptoms and I was seeing a whole crap load of... Sign in to see full entry.

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

It's Official

Yesterday at the doctor’s it became official. On my medical records it now says Schizophrenia. Not “Possible Schizophrenia” or “Psychosis”. It’s now “Schizophrenia”. I’ve been switched to a new medication and so far I haven’t seen any super big down sides; granted I’ve only been taking it for one... Sign in to see full entry.

Monday, January 17, 2005

Childish Wants

Today I’m going to do something I’ve not done before. My mother and step father are going to come to a meeting with my therapist and me. They’re very concerned and look at this as a way to learn from my therapist how they might help me get through this. I’m actually very glad this is happening, my... Sign in to see full entry.

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