Adventures in Psychosis

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Tuesday, January 11, 2005

Dreams

There are many things that I want to do with my life that I have not yet had the chance to do. When I was 16 years old I wrote the following on a napkin from the pizza place I worked at: Imagine a “game” where you are truly God. How many times has life seemed so pointless, useless and meaningless... Sign in to see full entry.

Monday, January 10, 2005

My Curse

Being single isn’t all it’s cracked up to be. I’ve been single for a few months now, and am experiencing some serious issues that have shown their ugly faces before. I suppose I have what you might call an attachment disorder; one of my basic needs in life is affection. I’m not the clingy, annoying... Sign in to see full entry.

Saturday, January 8, 2005

Feeling Better

I really think I’m starting to see some help from the medications now. Things are finally starting to look up. My symptoms are actually starting to decrease and I’m not so confused and lost about my situation. In general I’m feeling a little more upbeat, more like I used to feel. I’ve rediscovered... Sign in to see full entry.

Friday, January 7, 2005

Drama

It’s that thing we all tried to avoid in high school, or at least some of tried to avoid; some people seem to thrive on it. Its only name is “Drama”. You know what I’m talking about, don’t you? Perhaps you were one of the people who used to live off of it, perhaps you still are. For those of you who... Sign in to see full entry.

Purpose

Do I have a purpose? Is there some greater reason why I am here? Is there some great reason that humans as a whole are here on Earth? It seems to be a common thing for people to wonder if we have some purpose for being here, or if we’re the result of a chaotic universe that spawned us because that... Sign in to see full entry.

Thursday, January 6, 2005

I don't know anymore

Maybe things are starting to get better, I’m not too sure at this point. While my symptoms haven’t been as severe, I am feeling generally confused about my situation. I can’t tell if what I am experiencing is really by definition a hallucination, or if it’s more of a rogue thought. I’m not feeling... Sign in to see full entry.

Wednesday, January 5, 2005

Still Alive

I’m still alive. I’ve just about had to stop working now, because I just can’t make it through more than a couple hours of work. I’m going to talk to my psychiatrist today about the possibilities of either hospitalization or an Intensive Outpatient Program, where I would receive therapy and... Sign in to see full entry.

Saturday, January 1, 2005

The Good and The Bad

It’s tough to say how things are going for me right now. Part of me would say things are better than they were before, but the other would say that things just keep getting worse. I’m not in as bad of a place mentally as was a couple of days ago, but I can certainly see that things are not as good... Sign in to see full entry.

Thursday, December 30, 2004

Where I am

The last couple of days have been taxing, to say the least. I have not lost my will to fight, but the fight is growing ever harder. My mother has suggested perhaps checking myself into the hospital for a couple of weeks so I can get my medication figured out and have therapy on a daily basis. Me? In... Sign in to see full entry.

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

Excited

Perhaps today there is a small beam of light penetrating the darkness that has surrounded me. Listen to me; do I sound over dramatic or what? Anyhow, something good I think is going to happen today. I’m going to get to talk to someone new, which is always a fun experience. What makes it better is I... Sign in to see full entry.

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