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Sunday, April 18, 2010

Kiss, Gene Simmons Family Jewels

I have gotten hooked on Gene Simmons Family Jewels. I started watching reruns last weekend and it is a hoot. He is nothing like his stage persona. The show is about their family life. He has been with Shannon Tweed for the past 24 years and they have 2 teenage kids. He is really a good Dad and he and Shannon have raised 2 very fine kids. The other show I really like is Kirstie Alleys Big Life. She has 2 really fine kids also. If you ever get a chance,take a peek. I have finally gotten to a place... Sign in to see full entry.

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Thursday, April 15, 2010

A Breakthough

Stuck. Frozen. Fear. This is the life of caregiving and moving through these feelings while grieving is a monumental task. You no longer have to stay home but you can't go out of the house because you are conditioned to be at home. You are frozen in time of what was and trying to move on brings waves of guilt. Guilt because you are free because your loved one died. Guilt because your happiness that you can find in thinking about yourself means that you no longer have to consider the consequences... Sign in to see full entry.

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Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Thank you all for the prayers for our friend

Donnie's operation took 7 hours last Thursday. He has had a pacemaker for 30 years so one lead was embedded into the heart and had to be left. The other lead has been in for 10 years. They placed a temporary pacemaker in and are supposed to place a permanent pacemaker in tomorrow. He has been in the hospital since the operation and hopefully will be able to be home by the end of the week. The operation tomorrow should only be a couple of hours. We had rain, rain, rain last Thursday and then it... Sign in to see full entry.

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Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Prayer Request for a Friend

One of my and Jim's best friends has to have open heart surgergy tomorrow. His pacemaker wires have to be replaced and he may even have to go on bypass depending on how difficult the surgery may be to replace the wires. He is only 62. Please hold him in your prayers. He is such a wonderful person and so is his wife. Jim is coming up and we are going to Kingsport tomorrow to be with Brenda. Many Blessings skye Sign in to see full entry.

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Sunday, April 4, 2010

A New Family Experiece (Love Blooms and Families Grow)

I went to church with Blake and Yvette today. It is a huge church and was packed. I had to sit one row above Yvette's parents and 1 row down from Blake and Yvette. The church is so huge there are sheriff deputies to direct traffice. Surrounded by all these people and family, I still felt so alone. Afterwards we went to Kivera and Komote' s house for Easter dinner. Originally my church had helped their family to relocate here from the Ivory Coast in the Congo. We had a really good time. I now... Sign in to see full entry.

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Saturday, April 3, 2010

The Hostess with the Mostess

Rosie hosted her first doggie party today and all went well. Buster Bagwell Bently, Spunky and Midnight were all invited and came for hamburgers and hotdogs. Buster Bagwell Bently with his new hair cut. He and Rosie are the best of friends and play everyday. Doggie greetings with Rosie, Midnight and Buster. Spunky with her mommy Brooke. She is feeling better and hasn't had any more seizures but has really bulked up since she had to take steroids. All my children. Scott, Brooke and Blake with... Sign in to see full entry.

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Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Finding Balance

There is a fine line one walks to maintain balance and it can only take a wisp of wind to blow one off the high wire. As before there is never a safety net to catch the fall and the spiral continues downward until rock bottom but this time I had a bungee cord so the spiral was shortlived. The worst part of emtional upheavel is the physical consequences that arises from the biochemical feedback loop. So I pulled several things out of my healing bag and have finally got things back to balance at... Sign in to see full entry.

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Friday, March 26, 2010

Rain again

Woke up to rain again and so did my spirit. I did manage a load of laundry and tug of war with Rosie girl. I would love to have several sunny days in a row. The sleep is doing me good though and I actually feel somewhat rested this afternoon and definitely more relaxed. I'm trying to memorize the feeling so I can get back to it when I want to. I'm going to take my poems and paintings over to Gems and Whims tomorrow to be sold on consignment. I really hope they sell fast. Sign in to see full entry.

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Thursday, March 25, 2010

Numbness

The other side of the hurricane has not been fun and the fresh grief and anxiety has been so difficult. I found some Lyrica that I had taken last year for the fibro. It is an anti-seizure medication. I had to quit it because I couldn't function and take care of Richard. It stops the anxiety but after a week on it I'm nonfunctional and numb. Good thing I only have one more pill left but it is nice not to be having panic attacks daily. We had snow again on Monday and Tuesday and 60's and sun on... Sign in to see full entry.

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Sunday, March 21, 2010

Reconnecting

I went to church today for the first time in months. It was so nice to be greeted with such love and happiness. It is the church I grew up in so I have a strong connection there but my belief system is on a different level. I have learned to incorporate and tolerate most of their teachings and bit my tongue on the rest but some times it is hard to keep my opinions to my self. Anyway, my Mom's friends are still there and it's like having a part of her there and I feel very comforted. I think I... Sign in to see full entry.

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Saturday, March 20, 2010

Eye of the Hurricane and Finally the Perfect Day

It would seem that I have been in the eye of the hurricane these past couple of months. With the coming of sunshine and warmer weather new grief came. My swing is very empty with Richard not being here to swing with me and I can't see Mom working in her yard or sitting in her porch swing. Even though I have walked with Rosie over to Mom's house to visit with Blake and let Rosie play with Buster, the house is bare compared with how it used to look. Blake has made it home and he has no clutter. He... Sign in to see full entry.

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Saturday, March 6, 2010

A great blog lost again

see ya tomorrow. The mountains danced today. We had SUNSHINE. Sign in to see full entry.

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Sunday, February 28, 2010

I May Have A Part-Time Job and Have Decided on a Car

I have been a busy beaver working on my presentation for teachng a class on Fibromyalgia and relaxation techniques for my doctors physician group, Family Practice. I, also, proposed that the position be expanded to be a patient educator for Diabetes, Parkinson's, Alzheimer's, Cardiovascular diseases, being a caregiver, and end of life issues. I have also offered to provide Healing Touch Therapy for their staff and patients for stress relief and pain control. Of course there are many other... Sign in to see full entry.

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Tuesday, February 23, 2010

More Clearing out Mom's House and a Trip Down Memory Lane

Blake called this afternoon and said he needed help. He was cleaning out the kitchen cabinets and sorting all Mom's pots, pans, baking dishes. Rosie and I walked over through the back yard. It is really getting colder but I made it and Rosie walked like a pro with a knowing excitement that Buster was waiting for her. What a trip down memory lane it was.Blake remembering having sherbert with his Pa with Pa's special toppings cereal and sunkist and Grandmas special orange juice glasses she served... Sign in to see full entry.

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Monday, February 22, 2010

Coulda, Shoulda, woulda

I read my horoscope and it was depressing and sent me into a spiral of how I coulda, shoulda, woulda. I know better but somedays it is hard to overcome. I'm so tired of the snooooooooooooooooooooooow and even with the nice days we've had, I've had a virus that put me under for most of it. I don't do nausea and vomiting without panic attacks and even if I get through it, the residual anxiety causes depression. The 2 days of walking with Rosie was a shock to my physical system and increased the... Sign in to see full entry.

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skye01 Having Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and Caring for my husband who had Parkinsons and Alzhiemer's and the changes we face each day. Meditations for stress relief and care for the soul. My journey through the grief and reaching acceptance. My life as I have grown in Love and Joy and Happiness with my family and friends.

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