The crazy lady strikes again

I'm not ashamed to admit that I need help right now. We happen to be behind on the rent as well as utilities. We have some assets that we can sell off, and we are interested in selling them off in order to pay our outstanding bills. Of course, every little click helps here, as well, but I'm afraid I need more than that. If anyone happens to know of a way to sell off used compact discs, I'm interested. The same goes for finding social service agencies that help with the rent and utilities.... Sign in to see full entry.

Of course, I'm concerned about the victims of Hurricane Katrina, and I regret that I haven't written about this topic sooner. Just this afternoon, I heard that the local chapter of the Salvation Army was sending a communication truck down south so that people in New Orleans could contact loved ones in other parts of the country who were worried about them. I've linked to them because I feel comfortable asking people to donate to them. If you want, you can also donate to the American Red Cross.... Sign in to see full entry.

I just wish there was something I could do or say that would get me the help I need. Yes, I'm afraid, but I don't know how to express that fear in an effective way. Sign in to see full entry.

Today is our cat Michael's fifth birthday. (For those of you that follow Nurse Garfield's blog, she doesn't have a formal birthday.) We feel blessed to have him in our lives. Today is also a day when I feel some fear. This is unusual for me of late, but it's warranted. We are worried about how we are going to come up with the money to pay all our bills. Granted, every little click helps here, but I didn't cash out last month. Any comments you might want to leave are appreciated. Sign in to see full entry.

The good news is that I feel better than I have in a couple of days. The stomach bug that gave me so much grief yesterday seems to have abated, much to my relief. However, I do have one concern that I wanted to share with you. I find that I am not getting out as much as I have in the past, and I don't like that. I find myself isolated in a way that distresses me, because I know that I am at risk for a relapse of my depression. Thanks in advance for any responses you might give. Sign in to see full entry.

It hardly seems as if a year has passed since I was on a locked psychiatric ward being treated for depression. I feel much better now, thankfully. I have moments when I feel depressed, but it's not like it was last year, when I was actually in physical and emotional pain from the depression. One thing I'd like vibes and good thoughts for is that I don't relapse. I would like to go into advanced or intensive outpatient treatment to make sure I don't get that bad off again, but I have so many... Sign in to see full entry.

I feel much better now that I've gotten out some. As Garfield mentioned in The Secret Life of Cats, we went out to dinner and a movie yesterday - nothing expensive, just a good time (although I was bored stiff by the movie). Fortunately, we have an inexpensive second-run movie theater five or ten minutes from where we live, so we didn't have to pay an arm and a leg to see the movie. Dinner was also inexpensive, relatively speaking. Also, today, we went to my husband's company picnic. I... Sign in to see full entry.

This is the blog entry I promised to write in The Secret Life of Cats. It seems I may not be posting here much longer - that I may be temporarily sidelined by disconnection of my electric service. Because we've had so many medical bills over the past year - I've been hospitalized three times in the same calendar year, from August of last year to last month - it's been a struggle trying to pay for everything, including the rental fees on this computer. Any suggestions or help anyone might offer... Sign in to see full entry.

The past few days, I've been watching a lot of the local high school's TV outlet (it's one of the few high schools in the area with a fully functional TV studio and radio station). This has brought back many memories. These memories are not all pleasant, and I have to be very careful about how much of this particular television outlet I view for that reason. I find that my depression is worsened by watching this station, so I have to carefully limit the amount of time I spend watching this... Sign in to see full entry.

This afternoon, I've been thinking of one of my old roommates from when I was hospitalized over the winter. (I was in a nursing home for about thirty days for rehabilitation, after being in a regular hospital for a week and a half.) She was in the rehab ward because she'd just had a leg amputated perhaps a month before she became my roommate. What came to mind when I thought of her was that she thought she could never learn to walk unless she had two prosthetic devices. (She had already had one... Sign in to see full entry.