Random thoughts and actions

Another random thought I have had lately is about paranoia. Probably because I have been suffering from it yet again. I go through these periods of being so scared about something happening that I literally cannot move. It's actually more like an anxiety attack. I have had them on and off for the... Sign in to see full entry.

I was thinking on the way home today about fear and whether it is learned or human nature. I am scared of a ton of things. I will not watch a scary movie. I have tried but it will always end with me wide awake all night and scared to turn off the lights. It's just the way I am. I cannot even turn... Sign in to see full entry.

You make a blog about anything that might remotely be considered controversial and look what happens....people run to read and post. That to me - is not considered great talent. Anyone can do it..heck even I can. It's not at all what my previous blogs have been about but it proves a great point. No... Sign in to see full entry.

that in order to get anywhere on blogging network you have to be a bitch or else you have to write crap? It's because it's read. Plain and simple. Those people got there because they continually get someone to read their blogs. Now it's probably the same crap writers who are reading the crap but I'm... Sign in to see full entry.

I went shopping today. I really dont' have the money but I needed something to put me in a good mood and shopping for a neat shirt or something always does it. Probably not the best thing in the world but it works. Anyway, I found a t-shirt with Ernie on it and it says Have you seen my rubber ducky.... Sign in to see full entry.

I have noticed in the last 2 weeks that my sleeping pattern is completely messed up. I am up late at night writing or blogging or just hanging out online. I get up early - usually about 2 hours before I really need to and am doing a little more blogging or just hanging out online. It's like I seem... Sign in to see full entry.

she keeps going and going and going... I'm still writing away in fiction....it's all over the place at the moment but I'm working out some kinks and coming up with some ideas. I'm very proud of the fact that I have been there every day to write at least something. That is the discipline part that I... Sign in to see full entry.

I have been writing quite a bit in my fictious blog. It doesn't all make sense and I know that quite a bit of it is all over the place but I feel that I just need to get some of it out. I think some things are blocking the good parts that are still locked up inside of me. I spend my days at work... Sign in to see full entry.

Or at least is what my best friend told me last night about my ficticious thoughts and actions blog. I had been reading a magazine for writers yesterday -just waiting for my boyfriend at the mall..when I suddenly sprang up and ran to get a notebook and a pen. Now normally I have that with me but I... Sign in to see full entry.

I have run home the last few days wanting to write...full of ideas and plans. Last night however I wanted to write - and while I did do some writing - I still had a lot more ideas that I just had no desire to put down. It was an interesting and frustrating feeling. Here I am - always wanting to... Sign in to see full entry.