Happy New Year-to you ALL!
Thank you too-for your company over this Holiday! God bless-Chris. Sign in to see full entry.
Sunday, December 31, 2006
"Care"
I had a 'blip' during my therapy and thought I was being 'tested out' but in fact I was receiving the greatest of 'Care'. Care? Is but a form of 'tease'-a bribe-a phantom-an illusion. I gave my all-then 'care' was gone-- in place-such heavy desolation! Care 'teased' again but I grew strong! I built... Sign in to see full entry.
Saturday, December 30, 2006
"I Am Reviewing The Situation"
I wrote this during an Xmas break from therapy. The roots so deep and tightly clustered-smothered by the wraths of time-- tainted by a foul and putrid odour-I thought belonged to others-- but they were mine! From where they came-at first was quite unknown to me-- and how they grew to such a vast... Sign in to see full entry.
Friday, December 29, 2006
"A Wild Piercin Scream"
I have posted to date-nearly all of the poems I wrote during the 'informative' early part of my Therapy.I am finding it extremely difficult to post this one!(Perhaps I still have 'work' to do on it?)When this happened to my youngest son in 1982 I had no conscious knowledge or awareness of abuse or... Sign in to see full entry.
"Parting"
This 'shortie' follows the previous one. This is not 'parting'-I'm just 'stepping aside'-- to give 'others'-the priviledge of being with you. I am not 'leaving you'-simply 'taking out some time'-- to consolidate-everything that we've come through! Sign in to see full entry.
Thursday, December 28, 2006
"Our Final Day"
I wrote this,wrongfully assuming,that my therapist was going to end our sessions! I think about our parting and the tears well up inside-- I think about the loss and grief I'll feel. The little one in me has run away to hide-- 'ending' was 'futuristic'-now it's real! It feels like I am playing a... Sign in to see full entry.
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
"Internal Conversation"
One from my therapy days. I tentatively raise the veil and lower the mask-- as I begin to grieve for my mother. Even through my web of hatred and love-- I would have wished to be a part of her sparkling world. To sit enchanted by the magic of her playing-- chord after chord.The Minuet Waltz-The Last... Sign in to see full entry.
Monday, December 25, 2006
"HAPPY CHRISTMAS TO ALL BLOGGERS"
AND A HEALTHY-PEACEFULL AND HAPPY NEW YEAR.Love Chris. Sign in to see full entry.
Sunday, December 24, 2006
"Thursday" -(the second one.)
There is no longer-a second voice arguing in my ear-- no further contradictions. No challenges to my words-the're clear-- 'isolated' from infection! I feel 'singular'-but strangely safe in this autonomy. My thoughts are mine alone-nothing 'shadows' me. Sign in to see full entry.
"Thursday"
I've never understood the adult world-- I allowed the Inner Child to take control. Then you stepped in and showed me how absurd-- how complicated I made life, on the whole. I stayed a child for fifty nine whole years-- in order to survive the 'adult's games'. The child never had to make decisions--... Sign in to see full entry.