Monday, January 15, 2007
(Nothing to do with my therapy-I wrote it years ago.)It has to be read quite fast. No open fire and no burning logs, no glowing coals can we see. For it seems that the smoke is polluting the air.What a dull world it's going to be! No open spaces-all concrete cages-no dandelions or weeds! No natural... Sign in to see full entry.
"The Snatch!"
Written in the early days of my therapy. I see it now-the vivid memory in my mind- as someone snatched me from your hold! I feel the discord and the fears as I scream and cry my tears- but this stranger that holds me like a vice-moves on. I reach out my arms-my fingers clawing at the air- 'till you... Sign in to see full entry.
Sunday, January 14, 2007
"My Son"
A letter I received from my eldest son who was travelling around New Zealand,triggered off this poem. My Son-you travel pathways that I have never been- new lands and places that I have never seen. In your narration they become alive-pictures-vivid and exciting to my mind. You open avenues anew-I... Sign in to see full entry.
Saturday, January 13, 2007
"Love Is---"
Love is--never having to say sorry. Love is--meeting each other half way. Love is--giving whole hearted attention-- to all that the other might say! Love is--trusting and thoughtfull and sharing-- respecting the other one's space. Love is--tender and faithfull and caring-- Love in it'self-is so full... Sign in to see full entry.
"Missing You"
There was a break in therapy over my second Easter-I was feeling vulnarable and regression set in. I 'miss' you-'tho I have no reason-a panic is looming inside. No cancelled session-no real cause for fear-- but I want to run and hide! My feelings are those, that you may not return-- you may choose... Sign in to see full entry.
Friday, January 12, 2007
"I Stood On Your Threshold"
14 months into therapy,Bruce changed the venue to a room in his own home.This was my reaction. I stood on your threshold-Woman and Child-- my heart in a panic-my mind racing wild! (I remember a man who took me somewhere-- led me up a path and left me there?) I saw you appear from the bushes-I... Sign in to see full entry.
Thursday, January 11, 2007
"Statement To My Father"--(Biological father)
During the early days of therapy-I found 'Anger' amongst my emotions and was scared that I would be 'out of control' withit and hurt someone.So I wrote. At last I have come face to face with YOU! You who encroached upon my body- you who left me in a state ofexpectancy! You who ignited a flame which... Sign in to see full entry.
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
"The System Is Corrupt"
(written within therapy ) How can I be angry at the system-when the system in itself-is corrupt? Deciding themselves on our futures-messing our whole lives up! My mother is dead and buried-how can I show anger at her? A naive and selfish woman-my memory of her-just a blurr! My father a seaman-away... Sign in to see full entry.
Tuesday, January 9, 2007
"Powerful In My Weakness" (Written during a short break in my therapy)
For a short while-there was peace as I lay there- gathering my first 'winds' and breath of life. Efficient hands had bound me in warm remnants- for one small moment I was feeling all right. I soon learned that this world is quite deceptive- moving shadows and blurred shapes all around! I tried to... Sign in to see full entry.
Monday, January 8, 2007
"I Set You Free"
When my son first left this country to start a new life in Sweden-I was devastated and worked so hard in therapy with my emotions.He returned home for a flying visit after his first year,the water's were stirred again. You have your reasons why you choose-to travel on your own. I will not... Sign in to see full entry.