Adventures in Psychosis

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Monday, December 27, 2004

A Dark Night

Is this simply a bad day, or are things finally taking a turn for the worse. I’m sitting silently in my room, the lights are out and three candles are burning, softly illuminating my desk. The rest of my room is dark and motionless. A song is playing quietly from my stereo, filling up the otherwise... Sign in to see full entry.

Where are You?

What do I want to happen to me now? I suppose I’d really like to see things work out in a way where everyone can go home at the end of the day and feel satisfied that things went well for them. What does this have to do with me? I really have no idea. I wish there was some way to know what was in... Sign in to see full entry.

How Bad I Want to Give Up

How can I explain what I’m feeling at this very moment? It is hard to focus on writing this entry, the world looks as if it’s dark and bleak, and nothing seems to help me in any way shape or form. Things are progressively getting worse, and maintaining the ability to discern from what’s real and... Sign in to see full entry.

Sinking Deeper

It is the time of year when I am always happy, no matter what has been happening to me. I get to see family and friends that I haven’t seen for months and months. This year has been different, however. The good times I usually have are being overshadowed by the happenings of recent days. In the past... Sign in to see full entry.

Thursday, December 23, 2004

Changing Me

Schizophrenia. It’s pretty harsh word in and of itself isn’t it? I have talked several times about the horrible symptoms of the disease, but I realized I have yet to talk about the other effect it has on a person: the mental and emotional effect. I have had the unbelievable fortune of being able to... Sign in to see full entry.

I am Affraid

Pushing back the fears I have about my disease is not always an easy task. There are many things I am afraid of when it comes to schizophrenia, and leaving them behind me can sometimes be troublesome. I’m scared of what my life will be like in a few years, scared of whether or not I’ll be living on... Sign in to see full entry.

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

Surviving

I haven’t been posting in this journal as often as I would perhaps like to be. Things are still getting tougher, and about the only time I can sit myself down and write an entry is while I’m at work. If I’m not at work, well it just becomes so much tougher to write a journal entry. I can write my... Sign in to see full entry.

Tuesday, December 21, 2004

It Went Well

It went very well. I talked to my boss about my schedule and he said my health is the most important thing. I’m going to start working flex time, where I’ll come in at some point in the morning, stay for however long I can or want to, then go home and do whatever, and if I should feel like coming... Sign in to see full entry.

Working Part Time

In a few moments I’m going to talk to my boss about my working schedule. I had planned on returning to work full time yesterday, but alas I simply cannot, things are still too difficult for me. I’ll have to explain why it is that I cannot work full time, so I’ll have to tell him about how when I... Sign in to see full entry.

Monday, December 20, 2004

Itty Bitty Pity Committee

One thing I have always refused to do is resort to self pity. I have never and will never say that it is unfair that I have this condition, that it’s unfair this happened to me. It certainly isn’t unfair in any way, it’s just life. I don’t want to become someone who pities themselves so much they... Sign in to see full entry.

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